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Can somebody please explain to me, please, the tendency of hockey fans to turn on their own teams and players the second they lose. I don't have any idea if it's the American/Canadian thing, but Europeans do not have that...kill drive to hate the team as soon as things aren't going the way they expect it to. Croatia is not a hockey country, we're more of a soccer country, but still, there's no hate for the team. Yeah, okay, we're the 8th team in the world right now, playing for the qualifications for the World championship next year, we won the bronze medal in 1998. world Championship and then failed to repeat the success ever since but we all stand behind our team. That's what you do, because they're YOUR TEAM.

Our only good hockey club KHL Medvescak, just got into Russian KHL league on the power of our fans alone. They are the fourth KHL team by the average game attendance, the 14th in Europe in total and that, more than the quality of our players and more than the bank statements got us into KHL. You don't give up on your team.

I'm new to hockey, I'll admit that and I have favorites, of course, the Pens are it, but even when you see them play as bad as they did last night you just keep on having faith in them. If they don't win it this year it'll be the next one cause they are an amazing team and they'll get there. The team doesn't benefit from having it's fans turn their backs on them the second something goes wrong. You move on and have faith and you'll get there.

Seriously, is it an American/Canadian thing cause I've never seen anything like it?

On a more cheerful hockey note Medvescak. We got Aaron Foc as our general manager, Mark French of AHL's Hershey Bears and Calder cup winner, Mark Dekanich (AHL and NHL) as our goalie, Charles Linglet (AHL), Ryan Vesce (San Jose Sharks), Hugh Jessiman (AHL/NHL), Mike Glumac (St. Louis Blues). Most of the players are going to be guys who have croatian ancestry so that makes it all the more interesting. Now I just gotta figure out how to get to the games cause the tickets are freakin cheap but the ride to our capital is way too expensive for me to make.

There was also a thing last summer where Medvescak played in Pula Arena a 2000 years old Roman arena in an event called Arena Ice Fever in Pula. Seriously, google it cause it was amazing.

This was gonna be a post about a lot of things but I'm having a lot of hockey feels right now, okay, so there. ^_^

I am alive. Kind of.

My life is in a perpetual state of limbo, which means that I still have no idea when I'm being evicted (something that should have happened a year ago) but for the time being I'm just feeling grateful to the sloooow Croatian bureaucracy that lets me stay in the apartment for as long as I can before I end up homeless. Because family is just a pretty word that doesn't have much of a meaning for me in the past years.

Still no job, though not for the lack of trying. I think i've been to over a hundred interviews in the past year but something always happens or they fail to contact me, or they lack the funds, or I arrange the start of the job and then nothing happens which is so fucking annoying and ridiculous I can't even. But we are a country of 4.2 mil people and have about 400 thousand unemployed so yeah, that's nothing weird or new. The employers can afford to be picky.

I am worried about what to do with my cats once I do get evicted but I am so trying not to think about that s much because it's breaking my heart.

The writing. Oh god, it's such a messed up thing in my head. I constantly try to write, thinking it might make things easier to focus on something else than the impending doom that is my life imploding. I have ideas, I have the beginnings of at least ten fics in different fandoms written down just in case I lose the will to write more and want to go back to them when my brain is in the right place. A bunch of those snippets are for stories that should actually be so much longer and I just do not have the will or concentration for those. And I'm not sure anyone would actually want to read them. Self-confidence, what is that.

I do have cooking school though. Which I fucking hate because I had to cancel a trip to Sweden because of it, just a few days before the trip and it's not teaching me anything I don't already know. It's a state funded re-qualification program that lasts for three months. It pays minimum wage and it takes up a lot of time because I have classes every day Monday to Friday and practical classes on the weekends. Theory I can handle because I earned a lot of these things in high school but the practical classes are bullshit. I worked in the kitchen before (not counting all the cooking I've been doing since I was thirteen), but these guys just put me on washing the dishes and chopping the onions and cleaning and stuff like that. It's annoying and degrading, but i don't care. Much. I'll be getting my certification next month and then I don't have to see any of these people ever again. 

On the positive side, the weather is finally warm, we're having temperatures ranging from 18-24C and it's glorious. ^_^ Everything's green and the cats are enjoying the grass and the sun and I drink my coffee in the garden every morning. It helps lift the mood.

Also, HOCKEY. Croatia is not much for hockey. We do have a league, but yeah, no. We do have one club that's awesome Medvescak, the bears and they recently applied for the Russian KHL League. Apparently they won't make it this year, but the next but still.
Oh and Dustin Jeffrey of the Pittsburgh Penguins spent the lockout playing for the Bears so now I am stupidly invested in the Pens. Time to get to know more about hockey that's not AO3's hockey RPF page. ^_^

I will try and spend more time on the Internet, get to know people more and meet more new people and be more outgoing. I kind of want my life back.